Truth in Weakness

I close my eyes
and think of lies
to tell the love
I do despise.

To say that I hate him
and wish he'd die;
but like I said,
those would be lies.

When in truth,
I love him so.
I asked for forever
and he said no.

So my burden is heavy,
only he lightens the load.
As for now and forever,
I'm alone on the road.

Trouble Doubled

It's amazing how
in just a few days
a person's life
can be totally changed.

One day I'm a child
the next I'm a grown up.
I'm so sick of money
I think I could throw up.

Responsibility is something
I have to take over, and
I'm not used to anything
except my dog, Stoner.

I'm getting no help from anyone
just a bunch of dead ends.
I can't borrow money
and I have none to lend.

Just like a baby
comes with no kit.
Life's the same way;
guess that's why life's a bitch!

There's nowhere to turn
and from here, no way out.
The hole's getting deeper,
and I just sit here and pout.

Trickle Destruction

Yesterday is the present.
Today is the future.
Tomorrow will be the past.

This pain and suffering
hunger and neglect...
How long will it last?

The fire is bright orange
like the color of carrots.
The rain is not pouring.

The trees are all gone,
the plants are missing
and the eagles aren't soaring.

Our faces are burned,
the ozone's depleting.
I need some lotion.

It is so hot,
let's go for a swim.
try and find me an ocean.

Transition

We walked in his office,
and signed our full names.
The we packed all our luggage
and boarded a plane.

Once at the airport,
we hunted for food.
Introduced to a TI
and encountered "the mood."

We rounded the corner
an caught sight of "the den."
All shuddered in fear as
we fell out and fell in.

The first week was zero,
we cried on the phone.
We walked around bug-eyed
and felt so alone.

Week one was better,
yet still a big test.
From breakfast to dinner,
then sleep through the rest.

Second week was long,
and SO uninvited, but
then comes the third and
we all get excited.

We've made it through evals,
we're awaiting the test.
And then off to warrior week
with the best of the best.

Standing in blues
outside the chow hall.
We conquered the five mile,
and now we stand tall.

Awaiting the bomb run,
the flags, and the band.
We are basically trained
in protecting our land.

I write this from tech school
two days until graduation.
Basic training was easy.
I'm ready to serve my nation.

To Stevie

I cannot write for you.
Nor can I write about you,
for you are my poem.

You are the perfect
combination of words
that I could never find.

No man-made definition
could ever describe you
or tell your story.

God told me a secret once
in the form of a life.
He named her Stevie.

It was the best secret
I'd ever heard.

To My Rescue

My guardian followed me home last night.
He stayed five steps behind.
He watched as I walked up to the fence
that held the dogs inside.

He watched as I jumped to he other side
and began to pet these dogs.
He watched as the black one's lips curled back
and he folded his ears and snarled.

With this, my angel jumped between us
before its teeth sank in my bones.
And the guardian lifted me up on his wings
and proceeded to fly me home.

Time... and You

Nine hours is a moment,
when it comes to time with you.
For every smile is a sunny day,
and every day is brand new.

I can't explain what you do to me,
or moreover, what I do to myself.
All I know is you've taken me
two times now, off the shelf.

This sadness and confusion
is part of why I'm here.
To live and learn, love and yearn,
in moments like New Year's.

And the mental notes that I take down
of a moment spent in your arms.
When all is right inside my world,
and I am safe from harm.

Add up to the book that's made of you
that I store in my memory.
So in times when I can't be with you,
I can take it down and read your story.